Ketcup and Mayonaise

Bessy(rachel): Kuya, pahingi namang ketchup... Damihan mo ha?..

Mcdo Crew: Osige po, saglit lang.

(suddenly, dumating un crew may dalang 5 ketchup)

Mcdo Crew: Ok na po Maam?

Bessy(rachel): Kuya... Ikaw talaga, sabi ko marami, di na makarequest eh... Dali na naman... Mga 10 pa...

McDo Crew: Hindi nga po?...(napatawa naman yung crew)

Bessy(rachel): OO.. 10 hah... Salamat...

(bumalik ang crew dala ang 10 ketchup...at umalis agad ng walang pasabi)

Bessy(april): Ano, okay na? Sisinukin ka na sa ketchup nian eh... Puro lycopene na laman ng katawan mo...

Bessy(rachel): Sobra ka naman bessy, ano... ikaw naman.. dali,

Bessy(april): Anong ako naman?

Bessy(rachel): Ikaw naman ang humingi ng ketchup...

Bessy(april): Ano?! Grabe ka... para 2large na fries lang toh...

Bessy(rachel): Dali na naman...

Bessy(april): Oo na... Sya sige! (tumawag ng panibagong crew)

Crew2: Ano po un...?

Bessy(april):Kuya, parequest naman ng 20 ketchup... Naglilihi lang tong bestfriend ko... Please...

Crew2: Maam, ang dami po masyado... Baka po masita ako...

Bessy(april):Ok lang yan, kahit dalhin mo palima-lima...

Crew2: Sige po maam, ittry ko po...

(dumating ung crew... gling sa iba't ibang bulsa, kinuha nia ang 30 na ketchup...)

Astig noh...(Well, about the Mayonaise...ako may favorite non, hehe)

Well, I miss those times... We always eat out... Anywhere we want... We disregard how much it cost as long as we are having fun... We might have days when we don't have any coin in our pockets, but we still have fun... Actually, we share our deep dark secrets... And it will stay as it is... Forever...

Dear Bessy... (I hope you may have the chance to read this),

How's doing? I miss everything about us..

our talks...

our unmeasurable laughs...

our bonding time (singing and dancing together)...

our pajama parties...

our crazy stories...

our timeless jokes...

our GABRIELA days...(rawr!)

and alot more...

We cried together, we had problems... We live... We laugh... We get separated but still we end up holding each other's hands... I could still remember those nights we sleep together, we fell asleep hugging each other and woke up just the same... (: Those days were irreplaceable...

I hope, we could still have time to see each other... We might have our own job... Time will come that we'll have our baskets full of fruits that we reaped from our own hardworks, and sharing it with you would be the best part of it. We are separated by miles, but always bare in mind that you always occupy a big space in my heart... I super duper miss you. And I so love you no matter what. Even the world go against us, I'll stay beside you. Some people might not understand us the way we act and react on some things, but the most important thing is we understand each other no matter what.

Bessy, I want you to know that I am always here for you, may problema man o wala...

I love you...

I miss you...

IT'S US... FOREVER....

Your loving bessy,

ApZ

THE ART of FEAR

Now Playing...
[The Remedy by Jason Mraz]

"...I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the lights on your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end...
I won't worry my life away...2x"

Yeah... This is the song I'm playing right now... And yes, I kept on playing it unconciously while in the bus on my way home from work. While looking outside,as trees and houses passes by,my mind was overflowing of so many random thoughts. Amazing that I came up with an interesting one. I was thinking about FEAR and how to deal with it.


FEAR
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
for other uses, see fear (disambiguation)

Fear is an emotional response to a perceived threat. It is a basic survival mechanism occuring in response to specific stimulus, such as pain or the threat of danger.


So fear, therefore is something we feel towards a thing we are afraid of. Everyone knows fear, but some only knows how to trade with it. I know what fear is... but I'm uncertain how to overwhelm it. I have boxes of it, and I know we have some things in common.

For me, FEAR is/are:

~> spiders and cockroaches (including all crawling organisms)
~> heights
~> crossing streets(specially on highways)
~> ghosts, wiccas, witchcrafts and pagan cults, etc.(well, it's situational...)
~> assessments/examinations (specially when I find the subject too complicated e.g. MATH, CHEMISTRY, PHYSICS and everything that is indeed to be memorized) heck!
~> criticism
~> falling madly in love...(then get dumped)
~>death
~> saying GOODBYE to someone whom you expected to stay for life
~> well, lastly... Ofcourse, GOD.



What's at stake?


Spiders... Cockroaches... Worms... Unidentified Crawling Organism(U.C.O.)... and alot more. Well, who likes it? If you do, I don't know if you're thinking just fine. Perhaps, consult a doctor.(Just Kidding! :) ) Yeah, not all but most of us are hating these creatures. Are we forever jumping in fear everytime we see one? We should not. It's quite easy, get your largest slipper and (...you know what to do next). Have a bit courage to do it, anyway you are a hundred times bigger than it. And besides, if you get used to doing it, the FEAR isn't there anymore. You'll be seeing yourself triumphant of getting over the thing you are scared of. Suddenly you'll realized that the FEAR you have before was now turned into something called COURAGE.

Heights...
Roller coaster, bungee jumping, parachutes, hang gliding... and everything that relates to heights... Yes, I'm afraid of it... It's like a bit next to danger. And the word "what if" starts to make up my FEAR. Like, "What if the rope breaks?" , "What if I landed badly?"or the scariest of all... "What if I die?" Would I still feel the JOY that the others felt when they tried it? I don't think so. Somehow, I'm thinking of trying it but definitely NOT now. Seeing videoclips of it makes me even feel the FEAR. But as I see overflowing with tears of JOY once they overcome it, I'm CURIOUS to try.

Crossing streets...
Don't laugh! :) I know, it's funny that a 19 year old lady finds it scary to cross the street. It's kinda hard to reveal it, though. But what I'm really scared of, is ofcourse, not the street-- but the cars and ten-wheeler trucks that passes. Again, there is the DANGER and overcoming it means alot. When I eventually crossed the other side, it's like a SUCCESS for me. Cheers! :)

Ghosts, Wiccas, Witchcrafts...etc.
Goosebumps...haha! Like those that you see in movies(e.g. sadako, exorcism of emily rose, the grudge, the white ladies, and more). I'm not a child anymore but it doesn't mean that there's an exception on what to feel. I'm afraid of that but as long as I haven't seen one, it will forever be just an art of my wild imaginations. There is one thing that I do before diving the bed-- I pray. And it takes the FEAR away.

Examinations...
Yes, I fear assessments and even evaluations. Why? In every test, there is a an unacceptable thing called MISTAKE, unless you got PERFECT.
I am not PERFECT. And committing MISTAKES for me is something I absolutely fear of. For every mistake comes with a consequence.
How can I deal with it?
BE PREPARED...because even intellects have their own weak points.

Criticism...
Critics are words we avoid to hear from people that are ahead of us. We might not want to hear or know bad things that they see about us. But acknowledging or learning it gives you a room to IMPROVE. I fear it. Possibly, because I hate to disappoint myself. Like, when I thought that I was doing great but for others, it was'nt good enough. It leads to frustration specially when I tried a couple of times and ended up with nothing. One thing to do is keep on trying. STRIVE for the best. If you feel like giving up, take a pause but never STOP. Because if you do, you are more likely to be called as LOSER.

Falling madly in love...(then get dumped)
Oh, I hate this... Spell O.U.C.H.-- that explains it. O-ounce of bitterness... U-unconcious falling of tears... C-cohesive suicidal attempt... H-hates to starve...
Yes... I know, overcoming it is hard. But CLOCK is moving,so as you should.

Death...
I don't want to die. I'm not ready yet. But it is a fact, that in time,destiny will come to bring us to it's bed. We may FEAR, deny for now, bargain, or even pretend we don't know it but ACCEPTANCE is always at the end. Right?

Saying GOODBYE to someone we expect to stay for life.
It's just easy. People do come and go. You can never dictate one to stay as long as you want, because we are created to make our own stories for us to see how the world works for us. It's hard to say goodbye. Seeing the person walk away is the most painful part. But have we thought that GOODBYES are really not forever? We are just acting over the distance that abides on a period of time.

GOD...
Precisely... No further explanation.



That's it...


For me... Fear comes with the things that we eventually learn as we grow up. Come to think of a child... so pure and innocent... He don't know the word PRETEND. That explains the reason why when he gets HURT, he CRIES. That is his way of showing how he got hurt. So why hide the tears if you feel the hurt? Sometimes, crying eases the pain...

To sum up everything I said, LIFE is something which deals with:


*HURT*PAIN*TEARS*LEARNING*FEAR*HOPE*LoVE*HAPPINESS*

I'm starting to deal with it...
HOw about you?
*

A Good Start!

11/07/2010 07:39pm

Pardz.warren



"Haha. pumasok k dw tmrw. un ang sbi."



It was my second week at work, first work after graduating at college to be precise. Yes, everyday since my application is a fear and joy combined. FEAR that I may not be able to accomplish well every task that was given to me, and JOY, for overcoming it once in a while. One question that keeps running in my mind was-



"Bakit ba lagi ako inuunahan ng kaba? E sa huli natatapos ko din naman ng maayos..."



I don't know why. And yes, it is normal to humans to react in everything that happens. I just don't get it why I feel that way every day. How am I supposed to overcome it? maybe I can get used to it someday. SOMEDAY.



Today is a tranquil Sunday. I am here, sitting in front of the laptop, trying to type every word that comes out of my mind. And definitely, it feels good. As we all know, talking directly to someone and writing down what you feel is very different. In talking to someone, we might hold our tongue to something we don't want to say, while in writing down what we want, everything comes out. Well, going back to what I am trying to say, it is a peaceful sunday night right now. A while ago, I received a text message from a friend/co-worker. I asked him if I passed the call simulation. Yeah, at first I was hesitating to open the message but I really have to, just to find out. And he said,



" Haha. pumasok k dw tmrw. un ang sbi."



I get it. I made it! I passed the mid-assessment and the call simulation. After that, I was thinking. What's next? Here's that different heart beat again. Like an automatic ticking of the clock. Perhaps, I just have to DEAL with this. I know I can do this like everybody does. Probably, If the person don't know me yet, he might say I am overreacting. He might say I can just do it easily but I'm just acting like I don't know how to. But he's definitely wrong.



I grew up experiencing things while nobody cares to support me. In my whole life, nobody has said. "Go April, I know you can do it." Or might as well ask, "Do you want it? Go for it, I'm just at your back." Maybe this kind of feeling just started since the day I found out that nobody cares if I'm the best or I'm the loser.



Yes, despite of those things, I still made it. Even nobody believes in me. Even nobody cares. Because there is one thing I'm absolutely sure of. That there is someone UP there, that though He is not physically present, I can still connect to Him through prayers. And I can see Him whispering back through the great things that happens to me every single day. (: