STIL.LET.TO

Minsan, hindi pala minsan... Kadalasan.. Makakaranas tayo madapa. Yung dapang dapa talaga... Oo, yun tipong lumapat na ang muka natin sa lupa... Sa batanguenio ika nga e subsob na. Masakit...pero palagay ko di nagtatapos dun ang istorya e. Feeling ko... May kasunod pa.

Correct!

Ano pa, e di tatayo. May napanood ako na video mula sa isang kaibigan nung pakiramdam ko'y katapusan na ng career ko sa trabaho... Sabi doon,

"If you fail, try and try...and try...and try."

Bakit? Kasi hindi ka man nabigyan ng pagkakataon na gawin tama sa unang beses... May pangalawang pagkakataon pa naman... Di ba? Pero hindi yun excuse para ulitin mo ang nagawa mong mali.


At hindi ibig sabihin na nagkamali ka, titigil ka na... Magpahinga ka muna pero wag ka titigil. Tumigil ka pag tapos na.


Oo, minsan masakit talaga at mahirap tanggapin... Kahit saang aspeto, nawalan ka man ng bagay na pinapahalagahan mo, o di kaya naman ay naloko ka... O kaya e bumagsak ka sa exam, marami pang pagkakataon bumawi... Pwede din na nagsisisi ka sa bagay na di mo nagawa...

Pero ang tanong...

"Anong problema don?"

Di mo man maitama o maibalik, may pagkakataon ka pa para magawa...o bumawi. Maraming oras...

Oo... Iba't iba nga ang tao... May iba na kahit sobrang nasaktan ok lang... Di mo maririnig ang salitang "ARAY". Meron namang iba na konteng sakit lang, kung maka-react naman ay wagas... Pero di ba maya maya naman ay wala na ang sakit? Di ba maya maya naman e wala na yung sugat? 

Pag nawalan ka, wag mo agad isipin na may mas magandang papalit... Ang una mong gawin ay magpasalamat, dahil nabigyan ka ng pagkakataon na magkaroon ng ganong bagay...o kung sa tao man, nabigyan ka ng pagkakataong makasama at makapiling ang taong yon.

Ay, napakapositive ko ata ngayon. Kasi, kung magiging bitter ako, ano bang makukuha ko? Mas sinusugatan ko pa ang sarili ko, mas masasaktan ako sa sugat na dapat ay humilom na...

Tama yung kasabihang forgive and forget pero sa tingin ko, sarili mo lang ang lolokohin mo pag ginawa mo yun... Dahil pag nasakatan ka ng sobra, nakatatak na sayo yun, yun ang di mo malilimutan kahit na sabihin mong nakamove-on kana...

Siguro, ang tamang salita don ay,

Just be yourself.

Kung galit ka sa taong yun, e di magalit ka.
 Wag mo kausapin, kung yun ang magpapaluwag ng puso at utak mo...
Pwede mo din plastikin kung di ka nahihiya sa sarili mo dahil brown bag na ang uso...
 Pero kung keri lang naman na patawarin mo, e di mas magaling. Mas maluwag.

 Wag lang ang lolokohin mo ang sarili mo sa gusto mong gawin na hindi mo naman kaya...

Kung gusto mo ng kausap, meron akong kilala na di ka iiwan kahit nasaan ka man o kahit itutulog na ng mga tao... Itiklop mo lang ang iyong kamay, ipikit mo ang iyong mga mata...at ayan na Sya. Pwede ka din umiyak pag sa tingin mo'y di na talaga kaya. Wag mo lang susukuan ang mundo sa problemang kaya naman solusyunan.


Ano, OK na? Sa tingin ko naman may point ako kahit papano... Sana nakatulong.

Kahit papaano.

#lovefreedom


Lesson should be then learned:

Yourself to STIL.LET.TO live...

STIL.LET.TO love...

STIL.LET.TO enjoy every blessing that comes and still COMING.

More to come. Right?

Actually, Mind dictates... Not the Heart.

Bitter...?
Na-ah.

People always think about falling in love, being hurt, and then fall in love again, and ofcourse, GET HURT.

People tend to say that everything they feel comes from their heart, where infact what we've done and what we felt was dictated by our minds...

Thank God, It's Memorial Day!

I was about to shut my PC off when I felt like unsatisfied... Crazy thing but I've stayed almost whole day in front of the PC just browsing Google, watching YouTube, surfing the Facebook...and a lot more. It's already late, and I decided to go and update my blog... It has been so long since I wrote something enjoyable to read. I love holidays in US. 'Cause it's the only "time-slash-day-night" when I can sit, not just relax but maximize my time with my families and friends... I did even forget how I was these fast few months, thing did go wrong, I had given wrong information to a dentist/provider two times this month. My mind is not in the momentum to work. And yes, I am kinda exhausted. I feel tired, my head always aches, I had sore throat which led me to hate the gravity which pulled me to bed for two nights because of fever. And yes, thanks to the HOLIDAY 'cause I had the chance to go home and extend my rest with my family... And you know what? I feel more than BETTER. The first thing that I did after I dropped my bag full of my used wardrobe was hug my loving Lola... It was really a nice feeling. So subtle, It's like I've been away for so long... Ang sarap pakinggan nung tanong na, "Kumain ka na ga? Ipaghahain kita, may paksiw na baboy mainit pa..." ...and even I have my tummy still in full, I said, "Di pa po... Tara sabay na po tayo...". And the best thing was before we start eating, my dear Lolo came, "O, anong oras ka pa dumating?" Nagmano ako tapos I told him to dine with us... "Ngayon lang po, tayo kumain Tatay..." There after, he sat beside me at the table and joined us eating. I missed them that much... They are my family. Without them, where would I be? I really don't know... For whatever reason God may have for making my Dad have his own family excluding me,and letting my mom fly in heaven, I'm still thankful for giving Inay and Tatay to take care of me.

If it's LOVE and AFFECTION that you are thinking of, I have had enough because of them...

I might say that before I end this day, I am closing my eyes not to sleep but to pray. Almighty Dad, This day was a perfect time that was spent with my family. I want to thank you big time for letting me away from them... Because the distance made me feel their importance more... I swear to honor every moment I spend with them... And I hope for their good health. Please take care of them more, and make them stay longer. I know It is impossible to keep them forever, but as long as I still have them, I'll beat my best to make them happy. I'll avoid the things that would make them hurt...and keep their laugh lines all the time. I love this day. Thank you po ulit... I feel like recharged. Ready na ulit. (: OwYesss. Noted: Well, It's Memorial Day! Happy Holiday US. I enjoyed your holiday. (: Nothing more. Nothing less. 05.28.2012

Yes. I think I'm In Love...But maybe just for tonight.

Debbie Gibson Lost In Your Eyes Lyrics

VERSE 1:
I get lost in your eyes
And I feel my spirits rise
And soar like the wind..
Is it love that I am in?

I get weak in a glance
Isn't that what's called romance?
...And now I know
'Cause when I'm lost I can't let go

CHORUS:
I don't mind not knowing what I'm headed for
You can take me to the skies...
It's like being lost in heaven
When I'm lost in your eyes
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/d/debbie+gibson/lost+in+your+eyes_20038524.html ]
VERSE 2:
I just fell, don't know why
Something's there we can't deny...
And when I first knew
Was when I first looked at you

And if I can't find my way
If salvation seems worlds away
Oh, I'll be found
When I am lost in your eyes

CHORUS:
I don't mind not knowing what I'm headed for
You can take me to the skies...
Oh it's like being lost in heaven
When I'm lost in your eyes

VERSE 3:
I get weak in a glance
Isn't this what's called romance?
Oh, I'll be found
When I am lost in your eyes

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I won't name NAMES.

But...

Yes. I am in LOVE.
I don't know if I will wake up tomorrow feeling the same thing but one thing is so sure-he is the one I'm thinking of as I create this blog.

The feeling is not usual.

Accidentally felt actually.

I don't know if I would let this feeling stay because as far as I know I am definitely not the type that he would like. He is one of the people I look up to. And he is so high that even how many step-ups I take, it may not be enough to reach his shelf.

I was about to be introduced to somebody else(i like).
Then suddenly I felt like hesitating out of shame. I felt like I need to hold someone's hand to release the pressure. Unconsciously, I held his hand while saying, "Wag na lang... Next time na lang siguro..." Several step forward was made when we realized na magkahawak pala kami... When he let go of my hand saka ko lang naramdaman yung biglang kaba..."

Bigla ako nagday.dream...

Pano nga kaya? hahah! :P

O sya sige... Bukas balitaan kita kung ganon pa din ang feeling...

#inlove.

One step backward for 2012...

Hi, it's me again. It has been more than a quarter since I was able to update my blog. And yes, hurrah for that! Exciting ang year na to. Medyo undecided pa pero alam ko this is a year for me to take one step backward. A lot may ask "why?" pero isa lang ang masasagot ko don, not cowardice kundi bwelo.

I have alot of things noted: mga plano ko for this year, next year, at sa mga susunod pa. Oo, nageexpect ako ng napakaraming bagay, regardless sa mga madaming hindrances na pwedeng maging dahilan ng failure ko. Whatever. Alam ko, maraming paraan, at lahat yon ay ready kong itry.

Well, this year for me is just like walking in a seashore. Enjoy lang, maraming makakasalubong,iba't ibang mukha...may mga kakilala mo na, at meron din namang makikilala pa lang at syempre may iba't ibang panahon--may maaraw at maulan pero sabi nga-keribells lang. :)

Family would be of course the primary. I would like to spend more time with them lalo na with my lolo and lola. I love them as much as they love me... Needless to say, sila na ang buhay ko, they keep my comfort. Two months ng vacation nila in Kuwait is so difficult. There were times nga na nasa panaginip ko sila at kasama ko, hirap maghintay pero di ba parang kahapon lang sila umalis? Now, they're here na. Nothing else makes me feel safer and secured than being with them...being those who you know...really cares. Sabi nga, unconditional. :)

Love life? Di ako nagmamadali. Those who want to stay, stay. Those who want to move on, mag.move on. I did a lot of mistakes na rin,enough para sabihing hindi ako deserving para mahalin. Aminado naman ako na pagdating sa usapang love,ako ang top sa pinakamagulo. Magaling mag-advice sa iba pero sa sarili, ewan.haha! Pero sabi nga, masyado pang maaga para don, di naman ako nagmamadali. Mas masaya kung magfofocus muna sa career dahil para sakin, everything would be easy when everything's settled. Masarap kasi yung wala ka nang iniisip...yung pati pamilya mo masasabi mong happy and contented na.

Well, isa din sa mga goal ko eh to get closer kay Papa God. Alam kong medyo naging busy ako last year kaya ngayon, magseset ako ng time for Him alone. Peptalk kay papa God. Pasalamat sa lahat ng blessings even small or BIG.

I promise to spend more time with my families, and friends. Eat outs with my co-workers and colleages. :) Pray more, eat more, and love more...cause there's more to come and more to life. AYt? <3