SUNDAY SADNESS

YES. I am bored.

I really want to go out today. Like the old days, sundays are the best of my weeks.

I could still remember, I usually go out with my friends-go malling after a sermon with the parish priest. Otherwise, go to LIPA with family-eat out,watch movie with my siblings, bonding time with my father and ofcourse my loving step mom.

Idk, perhaps, there is something wrong about me now. It feels so strange waking up late with a headache, sitting here a my desk, my eyes focused at the laptop,lost appetite, just BLOGGING.

COOL. Is this really the feeling of being out of the teen years? I don't feel anything good now. What's wrong?

But...
Yes, exactly! Maybe I need just a little talk with HIM.
I guess, He's just waiting for me to approach.
It's been so long since i had a petit talk with HIM.
and yeah, it's been so long as well since I stepped in the CHURCH to preach.

Well, HEAVENLY DAD... I'm so sorry. I know, work and alot of things poured my mind that I never realized that something is missing. 'Twas you who stayed beside me 'til the end. YOu never left me. Thank you for all the blessings, either small or bounty. I miss u... I love uuu...

and ofcourse the BOTTOMLINE:
~> have a small talk with HIM.
He's just waiting for you...
(:

LET GO AND FORGET

Well, I know...

A lot of people who knows me might read this and they would perhaps say what do i know about such words as LET GO and FORGET? It may sound easy as drinking a coffee, but it would be a miles different if you drink that coffee straightly when it's extremely hot. And yes, insanity that is...


As we all know, letting go and forgetting are two different words that goes together everytime we get hurt. We actually feel frustration everytime we let go of the things that we hold on tightly. These are sometimes the things that we've always wanted for so long.

Just like a kid crying over a toy in a store. Imagine how he put grip on an remote controlled airplaine he saw just then. Some moms would buy it just for the kid to stop crying... but take note, some will not.

Well, i have experienced that though, everyone saw me crying out loud,lying on the floor holding that precious doll i've really wanted but i think hindi ata effective ang pagiging emotera ko nung bata ako, the doll wasn't bought for me. Pero after all, after a week of playing with my mates with lutu-lutuan and bahay-bahayan, i FORGOT about the doll i cried for. Nonesense, right?

I have a lot in mind right now, maybe crying and depression is just an initial reaction of our mind and heart when we try to let go and forget of such things. Again, i know... It's never an easy thing, but learning it by process will definitely push us to something really great.

SIDENOTE:
Never let yourself be stucked!
Learn to FORGIVE and FORGET...
Well, if you've committed a mistake, just be SORRY and have a bit of change.
Having a hot chocolate after getting soaked up in the rain is the best for me.

LOVE YOURSELF. LIVE. LOVE. GOD.

and this GOES with a BOTTOMLINE:
~> i actually have two words for you.

MOVE ON.

OH YEAH! I'm Out Of The Teenage Years...

I just turned 20, and honestly, I don't feel anything significant about it. It's just the same besides that I’m out of the teen age years.

My nineteenth year was really something. I started it with a self promise of being submissive to INAY and PAPA to which had resulted to a GRADUATION el grande from college life. After a moment,I entered into a sweet and subtle relationship- without even foreseeing the doubts of "what will be" and "how will it gonna be". I was inlove and passionately being loved by a STRANGER. I gambled and tried my luck- hoping that my soul-less heart will be able to appreciate the same affection, AGAIN. But just like any other stories, my own vision of entrusting my necrotic heart to someone changed. I became selfish and resilient. We fought, we clashed and what's the best was, we end up hoping that doors might open for us in other way around. We still hold each other's PROMISE, and we know that along the way, we'll be able to find more felicity that we've always wanted.

That year taught me how to become a highbrow person. To be a real achiever, i guess, a SMART choice should always be considered. 2009 was not the best year but it was way different from the other. I'd been into different places, mingled with new faces and independently made decisions about everything. I finished my studies, celebrated holidays and blew candles with my loved ones- satisfying reasons why i should be thankful enough.

AND FOR THE SIDE NOTE: Random thoughts this '10

Trips. 1st whatever. Shopping. Beach. TELETECH. LOVE. FAMILY. Holidays. And more.

And as the saying goes, always beat your BEST. I will.

After a drink HEADACHE...

Ah YES! APRIL's still HERE.

I've been loaded with everything these past few weeks. My scheds were all tight- No time to bond with friends, to visit my relatives, to atleast dine out with my papa dear, to treat myself to salon, bla bla blas.. Funny though, I wasn't able to do those simple things when in fact, I WAS AVAILABLE on weekends.

What happened to me? NOTHING. What has changed? MANY.

1. I have graduated the training for product and it was worth the efforts. It has been three free months since I moved away from home.

2. Im turning 20, and I don’t still know if that will be jolly-oh-so-happy day. I don’t have any idea of what will be happening on that “supposed-to-be” HAPPY BEERDAY.

3. I am planning to cut my hair short but was hesitating. I might not want it after the haircut, so nevermind.

4.I am missing my INAY dear. I was supposed to go home every weekend but I turned out to go home every payday. EAting out with INAY with a shopping galore is a relaxing part of working(for me).

5. I was eating a lot now, I found happiness from the food I eat. YEY! YUmm.



And this goes to the BOTTOMLINE:

"I just wanted to say a big HELLO to everybody."

WRAP IT OUT!

...I'm into something NEW.

My frustration is GONE, or shall I say, is a BIG-DEAL-NO-MORE for now. I've seen two, atleast.

Soon, I'll be a busy maggot again so I wanna take some pause before the nonstop demands of being a CSR, lover, friend, a sister to anyone and a germ to others (if you happened to be infected, just kill yourself alright?. kiddin. ;p). CHILL guys, CHILL WITH ME! :)

Yeah, im into something NEW, that is... TO THINK OF ANOTHER FRUSTRATION.. yahoooo!!

Btw, do you know my favorite color? ;p haha.
This is the effect of being an easy-go-lucky for a month.
Thank you.