They say life is an unending battle. I agree.
And out of the million encounters that you've fought, there might be a number of loses but each time you fail, there is something that you have learned... You lose, but still you gained.
I can say that it is really easy to give hope to other people, but giving yourself a hope in times of difficulty seems to be hard. And now I ask myself, why???
I guess it's because it is hard for someone under an emotional suffering to think positively. Perhaps, he/she knows what to do, but is in fear or anxiety to make things possible. These people needs to be surrounded with people who can lift him/her up.
2014 is said to be a wonderful year to come. It is for us to find out whether this year will bring us more than just luck or will tie us down to our own predicaments. Well, 2013 has been a good year, it just didn't quiet end well. Some people came in and just go after providing happiness. But instead of counting worries, I start to see myself counting blessings. Even the smallest thing, I learned to appreciate. I guess I really need that. We need all need that. We need to be thankful that above all else, "tomorrow"~that we do not usually understand the worth means another hope, or another chance to make things happen.
I know everyday is a gift. But once in a while, situations never fail to control me and my emotions too...
This afternoon, after having my nap. My phone started to notify some messages. I opened each and all of it were trying to tear things up. I feel down. I am puzzled. Emotionally scattered. Confused.
In times like this, I would normally speak to myself and ask... What should I do? What should I feel? I just felt like being tied up in a railroad, afraid of the coming train, waiting for someone to help... Or should I shout for one?
God really has His own way to shake me, huh.
I know, this is just a trial, that someday too shall pass. And it is given to me. For I may not have it if He knows I can't.
Lord, I've been good. I may sometimes fail to speak close to you but in my heart I never lost you. Take away these fears. Let me see your arms reaching mine, in that way I know I'll be safe, I'll be okay.
I'll be fine soon.
Hopefully soonest.//
