My
Own Thought About LOVE…
Love.
Love. Love.
Pleasing
to the eyes and it is warming to the heart. As I look at the word, there are
mountains of thoughts that I look up on. Even the word itself explains it.
When
I was young as a kid, I have that mistake of thinking that love is when I saw
that awesome 4th grade schoolmate looking outside from their
classroom, located near the gymnasium beside the stage. Recess is the most
anticipated time in my elementary days, because it means, I would have the
chance to eat my sandwich right next to the person, I once thought, ‘ I love…”
Thinking
about it, I felt laughing at myself! I was really a silly kid!
Years
going by, I found out that the meaning of love is evolving. Changing.
In my own hands, and in every perspective.
Then, my high school days began. It was
fantastic as I’ve experienced. The best, as everyone once had. I had my first
boyfriend to which I thought, I’ll be spending my whole crazy life with. With
him, I experienced to break rules. I loved him in the extent that I’m willing
to give up everything for him which was not healthy for the two of us. Perhaps,
it may be a wrong choice of falling in love with him but I never regret any of
it. Because from my mistakes, I can determine now the difference between what’s
YES and what’s NO... In my experience of loving him, I’ve learned about the
word SACRIFICE. Yes, sacrifice in every angle. That beyond those negative
feedbacks from my parents, I remained loving him. I was told that because of
having him in my life, I would never have the chance to go to college. That
instead of making my way to my chosen career, I came to find a scholarship to
at least satisfy my educational attainment. That instead to be an International
Head Chef, I became a Teacher. That’s sacrifice. And facing the sharpest slap
that at the end, we broke up. But life won’t just end like that. I broke up
with him when I was 2nd year college for many issues I can’t bare.
Yes, I was the one who gave up. For I know my worth. I cannot go wasting my
life with a person who says he knows how to love but definitely don’t know how
to love himself nor consider the people around him. But nothing to regret about
because after a couple of years, I have my diploma in my hands plus the most
awesome boyfriend everyone would love to have. <3 o:p="">
Being
with him those days were the years, I realized what love is. I felt the love
that I’ve been searching for the longest period of time. I came to experience
new things, I’ve been to places I’ve never been, I learned to cook and
he’s one of the best cook I know. I learned a lot from him. He helped me
grow academically and in life. He supported me in about everything. When I was
in college, he finishes my project when I’m near giving up. He takes care of me
when I’m sick, for me he’s the best nurse ever. And he never loses temper
whenever I loose mine.
As
a girlfriend, I could never ask for more. He still gives even he’s near empty.
He’s really a good man. The only thing
that he can’t do for me is to SING and DANCE. Even when I’m sick, and I
requested him to sing for me to get better, he would say, get better and I’ll
sing for you. But when I’m already fine, he would never sing as he promised. He
would make a lot of excuses.
Glad
that even though we ended up not together, we remained friends. Our
relationship as lovers ended but our friendship is bound to eternity. He’s more
than a lover to me. He’s my brother, he’s my dearest friend. We decided to do
things apart for when we’re together, we can never fulfill our dreams. We’re
pulling each other back together. That it’s hard for us when we’re apart. We’re
like twins.
And
now, I am single. Yet I feel loved, because I have my family and friends
around. Happiness is when you know how to appreciate even small things you
have. Love is a universal feeling. Value is way important than price. :P And when you know how to value,
that’s how you do when you love.
